Today I began letting my close friends know that my girlfriend and I are breaking up. Of course, now here I am telling the entire internet, but no one is reading this anyways so it's not that big of a deal.
In any case, it's a very clean break-up between us (other than that she lives in the apartment above me), but it is remarkable to think that it's been 3.5 years since we started dating. To be fair, though, basically all of my time in grad school has absolutely flown by, particularly the last couple of years. Right now I am a big mix of emotions, but mostly I just feel relief to start being open with others about this and finally getting to move on in a new direction in my life.
Alas, here we are: single and free again, and beginning to get excited about it. It hasn't really sunk in yet, but having the freedom to pursue your ambitions is exciting and empowering. It'll just take me a while to adjust -- I've spent the better part of the past couple of years ignoring/questioning these ambitions, so I need to remember what its like to dream big again.
It sounds sad, but I certainly have no regrets about anything. Life is what it is -- there is no "right" path because whatever you do is what you experience and you learn from it, cherish the good times and change the bad. Yet to appreciate the former, you need the latter all the same.
Crazy. I'm ready for something new :)
In any case, it's a very clean break-up between us (other than that she lives in the apartment above me), but it is remarkable to think that it's been 3.5 years since we started dating. To be fair, though, basically all of my time in grad school has absolutely flown by, particularly the last couple of years. Right now I am a big mix of emotions, but mostly I just feel relief to start being open with others about this and finally getting to move on in a new direction in my life.
Alas, here we are: single and free again, and beginning to get excited about it. It hasn't really sunk in yet, but having the freedom to pursue your ambitions is exciting and empowering. It'll just take me a while to adjust -- I've spent the better part of the past couple of years ignoring/questioning these ambitions, so I need to remember what its like to dream big again.
It sounds sad, but I certainly have no regrets about anything. Life is what it is -- there is no "right" path because whatever you do is what you experience and you learn from it, cherish the good times and change the bad. Yet to appreciate the former, you need the latter all the same.
Crazy. I'm ready for something new :)
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